It's a very existential question.
I think many many of us would identify with the fear of death. I have it and can certainly identify with your feelings about death. I'm sure many people would have similar feelings if only they allowed themselves to feel.
Existentialism is a 'branch' of therapy centring around questions about our existence and the existence of other things. An example of an existential question might be 'Is a chair a chair?' It is only because we place meaning on things as human beings that we see objects as what they are....it gets rather phenomenological. The point of that little paragraph is that you could research existentialism..my explanation is definitely not exhaustive! You could also consider seeing an existential therapist!
When I stop and think about death.. it opens up so much more. You are in my opinion right to consider the origin of these thoughts ie: In your case do other anxieties play out in your feelings around death. You touched on a key point too.. you are scared of being alone. This is where my feelings are focussed. I am extremely scared of my loved ones dying and being alone so perhaps I should look at feeling less alone and more comfortable in my own skin?
Death is something that we can't avoid.. it can be useful to look at our attatchment patterns as these can form the basis for how we see death. You might want to look at a book by Elizabeth Kubler - Ross called 'On death and dying' or look at some stuff on attachment patterns.
This might not suit you.. I find that I am quite a theoretical person, I have an interest in psychology and counselling so this approach suits me, I recognise it isn't for everybody though!
Finally, some people would choose to ignore these issues but you have chosen to address them, I think that it's very brave to face such issues.
I hope this helps a little, take care
Syrup.
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