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feeling bad about scars
I look at my arms and know that i have screwed myself over. I will have to stay covered up forever now. i used to dress for the temp. but with my most recent scars i don't know if i will. prt of me is ashamed, part of me doesn't care and part of me wants to make even more scars that i would have trouble showing.
i don't see the point in stopping or getting better. my life is going to always be consumed with either anxiety about peoples reactions to my scars and when to/not to show them, or always covering up and hating that i cannot wear the clothes that i want to, and always being in hiding.
i have done all of this to myself, i am the one to blame, i am a horrible excuse for a human being and deserve to live in pain and suffering.
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