Lotti, I dunno. I guess cos he keeps promising that I'll be getting some or whatever and I'm stupid enough to believe it. To be honest, I think it stopped when we got back together while I was living in Wales. I've tried so many times to talk to him about it but he just doesn't seem to want to know. I think he thinks it's all just some big joke or something, I don't know.
StillVacant, I could try that I guess, it's one thing that I never though of. I'll have a look and see if there's anything around here because it's really starting to get me down now, I know it's such a silly thing to get upset about but it's starting to affect my confidence and stuff.
OverAndUnder, we've been together almost 5 years on and off. Got engaged nearly 2 years ago but most of that time we were living apart and I only got to see him every couple of months. Nine months is just getting ridiculous and it's not just me that agrees.
Also, I suppose I should add that like I said, pretty much all my friends agree that nine months is ridiculous and I've got a few encouraging me to just sleep with someone else, whether it's a full on affair or one night thing. I'm not gonna lie, I've never been more tempted to do anything in my life. I know it's really silly and in the grand scheme of things none of this should matter and I know it won't fix anything but right now, I just feel as if I don't and shouldn't care, as long as I get what I want. I know it's a really selfish way of thinking and stuff but I just can't help thinking that if I were to do it, it would make me feel better, even though it's probably going to be temporary.
I feel like just telling him that it's over unless something happens which seems a bit harsh really because deep down, I know I love him which sounds so hypocritical.
I'm thinking maybe a week apart from each other might help but it's just finding somewhere to go for that week. I'll have a think about all my options and then hope I've chosen the right one.
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