I want to say something, but my mood right now may make that backfire. In the mean time its within me and I cant seem to see past the hurt of right now.
I used to cry, I now seem to react to everything with frustration and anger.
I do practice occasionally, but I really have to trust the person to bring it up and the person who has upset me is not someone I trust much any more due to what happened. With my partner I am much better at saying something. Its more when its people I don't know well enough to either let rip with or to ignore entirely.
I supposed it boils down to I thought I had something, and now I realise I dont and feel considering the stress I went through to instigate it, I feel let down, lied to a few other things.
I am assertive for others but rarely myself
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