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sherlock holmes · 20-01-2012, 09:10 PM

I've had those exact rules imposed on me too. In fact, one time EVERYTHING in my room was removed, even the sheets from the bed and locked away. I had absolutely nothing except the clothes I was wearing and they searched me too.

I was on a ward where every time we left/entered we were searched. All visitors were searched too and there was a long list of banned items on the door. We had weekly room searches where they went through all of your stuff. I was not allowed out at all for the first month or so, then when I was it was only within the grounds of the hospital with two nurses. I worked up painfully slowly to be allowed to go to a garden centre five minutes away. Even after six months I was not allowed home by myself. I was not allowed any visits in my room either, had to be in an open part of the ward with nurses nearby. All of my post was checked and read before I received it.

So I know exactly how you feel. I know it feels invasive and that you are being treated like a child- but it is all being done to help you. Honestly. If you co-operate it goes much more smoothly. If you don't self harm then you don't get more things taken away. The more you try, the more things you get rewarded with and believe me it feels great when you get trusted with more and more things.

You'll get there.

20-01-2012, 09:10 PM	#2
sherlock holmes do you like my potato? Join Date: Mar 2004	I've had those exact rules imposed on me too. In fact, one time EVERYTHING in my room was removed, even the sheets from the bed and locked away. I had absolutely nothing except the clothes I was wearing and they searched me too. I was on a ward where every time we left/entered we were searched. All visitors were searched too and there was a long list of banned items on the door. We had weekly room searches where they went through all of your stuff. I was not allowed out at all for the first month or so, then when I was it was only within the grounds of the hospital with two nurses. I worked up painfully slowly to be allowed to go to a garden centre five minutes away. Even after six months I was not allowed home by myself. I was not allowed any visits in my room either, had to be in an open part of the ward with nurses nearby. All of my post was checked and read before I received it. So I know exactly how you feel. I know it feels invasive and that you are being treated like a child- but it is all being done to help you. Honestly. If you co-operate it goes much more smoothly. If you don't self harm then you don't get more things taken away. The more you try, the more things you get rewarded with and believe me it feels great when you get trusted with more and more things. You'll get there.
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