I think it was triggered by a huge build up over time.
I got out of the psych ward a few days ago, basically in the same shape than when I entered. Tomorrow I have to go back to Uni and face registration, which is freaking the hell out of me.
I can't see a future for myself, my family is nice but thinks of me as someone who drained their lives because of my illness. My friends, I don't have many of those, I'm much more of a loner. And the future plan is another hospitalization, which is also scaring me to death.
I don't know how to manage this mess.
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