[TomiJoseph]

There was recently an incident at my house where my mom's bf got mad at me over a misunderstanding, so he thought it would be a great idea to yell in my face and shove me against a wall with his chest. Ever since it happened, my mom keeps trying to justify what he did and tell me why it's my fault, which I know damn well it's not. I decided right then and there that I had to leave. My dad and I are gonna get an apmt, but for now, I'm staying with friends so I can just avoid everyone in that house. My mom got pissed at me and lectured me a lot about how stupid moving out is, but I can't stay in a house where a big guy is allowed to push me around. Anyways, because of this, I have to move out, I'm gonna have to quit school over this, I have to work so my dad and I can afford food, I have to figure out how I'm gonna keep up my long distance relationship without internet (unless we can find dirt cheap internet), I have to solve everything. I'm left solving a million problems that I didn't create. My mom wants me to make nice with her bf, but I don't care if I never see his pathetic ass ever again.

It's just that right now I feel so alone, under so much stress, I don't know what to do. I want to break down and cry, but I can't since I'm at a friend's house. Since I can't cry, I wanna self injure, but I'm trying so damn hard to stop, I don't wanna give in. I feel trapped with all this stress and all these bullshit emotions and I just don't even know what to do anymore or how much longer I can deal with all this before I go insane.