Sorry to intrude on this thread, I don't mean to get in the way of all you guys' problems and stuff..
I've just been feeling really suicidal lately. Like REALLY bad. I'm on break from school so I'm basically just at home with my family which is not fun and there isnt anything to do to distract myself and I hate my house and its not a good time.
I hate myself and I don't have a best friend, all my friends only talk to me if I talk to them first and the guy who I like who saved my life and is also my best friend is dating my other friend which kind of crushed my heart and it sounds so petty and ridiculous but I feel awful about everything right now.
Basically every night I go over in my head the pros and cons to attempting suicide and I sit there and cry but being that it's the middle of the night it's really dark and I'm too scared to get out of my bed because I'm scared there's something in my room that will get me if I get out of bed (I know how childish that sounds..).
I just fee sick and dead all the time.
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