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mikey · 19-12-2011, 11:42 AM

Hi. Of course you can call me Ange

Things aren't good. I wish I could say they were.
I'm very tearful, a sign that things are not going well. I'm trying to carry on and do all the things that should help, but in reality they are not.

I've been putting so much effort into trying to be happy, but it seems that my best simply isn't good enough.
I don't know why I bother.
I've known for years how this is going to end. I don't think I can avoid getting ill again - that's the way my bipolar is. Episodic with constant relapses. And when I do, my suicide is inevitable.
I don't think I can do this.

19-12-2011, 11:42 AM	#8
mikey I'm a girl Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: UK I am currently:	Hi. Of course you can call me Ange Things aren't good. I wish I could say they were. I'm very tearful, a sign that things are not going well. I'm trying to carry on and do all the things that should help, but in reality they are not. I've been putting so much effort into trying to be happy, but it seems that my best simply isn't good enough. I don't know why I bother. I've known for years how this is going to end. I don't think I can avoid getting ill again - that's the way my bipolar is. Episodic with constant relapses. And when I do, my suicide is inevitable. I don't think I can do this.
	There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'. The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass! Terry Pratchett