You are not a terrible person.
I've been sober for almost a month now, so don't have the physical stuff anymore, but what I used to get is basically shakes, inability to eat, nausea, headache, and more cravings, etc.
I'm in AA, and although it was scary going the first couple times, I now love it. I have met so many people like me, some of whom are around my age. I have an amazing sponsor who was my age when she got sober and now has 40 years. The people there are like my family now. I feel like I belong, and being able to go to meetings and share, and have people understand me and support me no matter what, even if I slip, is just so so so amazing. I really recommend AA if you think you have a problem with alcohol. It's the best decision I ever made.
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