Hi inblack,
I had the same thing happen to me for a long time since after I left hospital. For me it helped to write down how I was feeling, so I kept a journal to write my memories in. It helped me get them out of my head and then I felt like I could move on a bit. (Sometimes I think the memories kept coming back because I was worried on a level that I would forget what happened).
Have you discussed this feeling with your psych? They may be able to help you find ways to come to terms with the memories and give yourself some room to move on.
Also, I've found mindfulness and grounding into the present moment useful when I'm having hospital flashbacks - to remind me I'm not in hospital any more. So I focus on something in the present - like a toy, or a table, etc - and focus on it intently to bring myself into the present and distract from the memories.
I hope you're okay and able to help distract/ground from and also process these memories.
x
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