[emily cries]

thanks for the feedback guys, i really appreciate it :) took me quite a while to get all my thoughts striaght and stuff... its hard typing it down... but easier than speaking it out loud i think. Even though its tricky, i think maybe its a good thing me doing this, getting it out there, into the world... maybe someone will read it and think 'yes, thats like me' and then wont feel so alone...