So, the emergency room called today. The reason I'm not peeing is because I have decreased kidney function and a antibiotic resistant infection. I've been peeing blood the past two days. They did mention admitting me if things continue getting worse or the antibiotics don't end up working. So, they are checking things out again on Friday morning.
IOP did not go well at all. I cried at each meal and ended up doing supplements in a separate room 1:1 with a staff member. I ended up getting really anxious after dinner and the staff left the group room for a minute and I just left.
They called me and asked me to come back but I said no. So tomorrow I see my therapist there during the day and then I'm still expected to attend IOP after. But I'm going to talk to Liz about it and see what she thinks. I don't think I'm ready for this. I almost just want to go back to Alcott...I never transitioned off the tube to real food. Not even close. This is not enough structure. I ****ing hate my insurance :(