Jess, Sweetie, I will stand by you cheering you on every step of the way. Remember those hearts I put in your card, telling you, Jess, all those things about you. I didn't write them for fun. Stick them up, remind yourself of them.
The happy, crazy, caring, fun, awesome, beautiful Jess is still there, Fight for that. Fight for her because she deserves to be free.
I am SO SO sorry and angry that your team has let you down, time and time again. It is completely ridiculous that you were on a NG tube constantly in hospital and now they've left you with nothing. Your body needs norishment.
When does the IOP treatment start again?
And this statement
My parents are acting like they wish I never came home. They won't stop with the comments about how I look and what I do wrong and how it's all my fault.
is so far from the truth.
Your family were so so proud of you for going in to treatment. Your dad was behind you so much (or atleast thats what we saw online) They really care about you Jess and if they are acting like the wish you never came home it isn't because they don't want you there because i'm sure they do want you there but it's probably because they are angry at the system, the want you happy and healthy, the care about you so much and want there daughter to be alive and well and reaching her full potential. Can you talk to them about how you feel? About what they can do to help you?
I love you Jess and I'd love to meet you one day. I know you can beat this! Keep fighting because I don't want the first time I meet you being at your funeral and I know that probably really hurts to hear that but I can't stress enough that you need to fight this tooth and nail until your better and if that means screaming, shouting and stamping your feet until you get the treatment you deserve then so be it!