I am not sure what to think really. In the past when I self harmed it was because of my feelings and how depressed I was and I just couldn't see any other way to deal with it and I just wanted to hurt myself because it was easier to deal with than everything else in my life but after stopping for two years and now that I have started again I do it for different reasons. I only self harm sometimes now but it started again because of my eating issues. When I eat something even if it is just a few baked chips or a small sandwich I end up punishing myself by self harming. My main problem has become the eating issues I have been having the last few months which lead into my self harming again. It has become really just a huge mess but honestly I don't think self harm is ok sure it is the lesser or two evils like someone already mentioned but in the end self harm ends up making you feel ashamed and you have to hide it. If self harm was okay I doubt we would feel the need to hide it and feel ashamed or guilty about it. We need to learn better ways to cope with things but I realize that it is so hard and what scares me about self harm is that what if I accidentally go to deep or I started cutting deeper and deeper. Self harm is a source of fear and shame and weakness for me personally and that for me is not okay.
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