I want to die more and more every day. There's nothing anyone can do. The crisis team are coming to see me tomorrow because my manager wouldn't let me go home alone without seeing someone about how I'm feeling. Great. They'll do what exactly? Do they come equipped with magic wands?
The only thing that's ever really helped, my medication, is yet again wearing off. So you'll change it. And then it will wear off again.
Why can't you all just come right out and agree with me that this is never going to go away? Why do you feel the need to talk around it? I already know so I'd rather you were able to admit it.
Why can't I just die without affecting anyone? I never miss people. I never try to see people. I wish I didn't have any family. I want it to be like I was never here.
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