In the UK it's not as simple as admitting yourself. Usually they won't put people in hospital because they ask - it's a very last resort.
Well done for not cutting and I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, but hospital isn't necessarily the best thing for you. Could you talk to your mum about how badly you're doing and explain to her that you need her support, not her criticism? Also, I think you should go back to your GP and see what they can suggest. It may be that you can get some more counselling sorted out. It sounds like that was beneficial - what was it you feel was most useful?
Is there a tutor at college you could talk to? Academic stress can have a big impact on mood and sleep patterns.
Hospital really isn't a delight. I don't know about adolescent wards, but adult wards are boring, with very little activity during the day. You would also be around some very ill people, which isn't really helpful for feeling better. It's used as a last resort to keep people safe from themselves, other people safe from them and to care for people when they are unable to care for themselves. It's no picnic, I wouldn't advise painting it as some magic fix in your head, because that's not realistic.
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