Thanks so much everyone for the kind words they have brightened my day so much, i havnt re-read my innitial post as i was in a really panicked space when i wrote it but things have calmed down a bit now. I dont have internet access there and dont have long now as am on leave for my birthday tomorrow (overnight leave is good but stressful!) The ward im in is an acute general MH ward, its very diff to the ed ward i know, they search your bags and its locked etc and a bit degrading almost. The nurses have no idea about ed's, they just leave me to do my thing and tell me when its meal time, i only eat what i want so have actually lost weight from when i was admitted but i am trying really hard to maintain not lose. Its just really hard i freak out every morning that i will gain so under eat and because i have so much free reign there i feel too guilty eating anymore then veges and soy milk because they dont encourage me and theres no other ed people to sorta put that peer pressure to eat which seems to be in the ed units when everyone eats together. None of them talk to me i just walk around my room all day or do crafts, they arent horrible some of them i like they just dont really bother with the patients that much. I am seeing a psyc now shes great, but really no ones even gone over when i can go home or what i have to do etc, i really just go day to day not knowing anything about goals for release etc etc.
Sorry this is a rushed reply, super tired. But just to let you all know im doing okay and your messages are really amazing to come online and read, much love and hope you are all hanging in there xxxx
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