Thank you. Im sorry, ive just copied it from my rant...but really its not a rant as its a valid and important question that I dont know the answer to.
I really need to sort my head out
It is slowly killing me
It is preventing me from recovery
I want to walk away from it all
And leave it all behind
and then things would be better..wouldnt they?
I have so much baggage...all telling me i deserve to suffer
I need to deal with that baggage
but last time my therapist tried I just couldnt speak..i was trying, but nothing came out..its stuck in me. And its strange because ive talked about some of it before with another therapist a while ago, but it didnt help me and ive locked it all away again and i need Amanda to help me..I really need her to help me somuch...but how can she if i cant speak about it all...if words wont come out...how do you make words become loud so she can hear? how do you do so many things that i cant do..how do i make myself feel that i deserve to get better? how do i lose the guilt and that shame?? How do you do it? Please tell me
Thank you xx
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