Dont worry yourself over this.
I went through exactly the same with so called friends I had during my schooldays, & one chap from my schooldays up untill 5 years ago who I thought was my friend turned out to be there only when it suited him & if I asked a favour in return he would give his excuses & in company he'd basically try & make a fool out of me, but the last straw came when he gave my mrs a peck on the cheek- I saw this as deliberate action to undemine my self confidence & boost his feeling of power over me/others.
That was 5 years ago & I've not seen or spoken to him since.
I still dont have many what I'd describe as real friends, but those I do have my best interests & I can rely on them when needs be.
So bide your time & make new friends, genuine friendship happens naturally, so dont try to rush the issue & have confidence with the fact that you deserve better than the so called friends you have at the moment who make you feel an outcast.
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