First off, I feel terrible for posting here asking for anything when I'm not very active on here and never offer anything helpful. I do come on here often enough and I do want to say something helpful sometimes but I feel like any advice I can come up with would be terrible and so I shut up. I'm sorry I can't be more helpful. :/
I've been thinking lately about starting counselling again. I did go to counselling at my school last year, and although the progess was too slow to be able to pick up on it at the time, I think there was some subtle progress made. The thing is, I think I am making progress on my own but it's taking so long and I don't know if I have the time for it to take so long. I mean, I don't want to screw everything up even more by rushing this, but I'm afraid that if I wait too long, it will be too late and my current situation will become the rest of my life. Because if this is going to be my whole life, then I really don't want to continue it.
I've also seen, in my new city, a community counselling center which has more specialzed departments, including one for women victims of past sexual abuse. They have one-on-one and group sessions. I've thought of going but I'm not sure. On the one hand, I think seeing someone who specializes might be a good thing. Even great counsellors I have found can only help so much because they don't understand much about the issue. But on the other hand, I'm not sure. I guess a part of me is still in denial and in the "it-wasn't-that-bad-and-I-should-be-over-it" thinking mode, and "why-am-I-making-such-a-big-deal". And I still feel like it's somehow my fault. And I think I might feel stupid in group with people who have probably been through much worse abuse. And I know it isn't about comparing, but I still don't want to go and feel stupid. And on top of that, I still have a hard time talking about it, so if there are certain things I have to say in there, I might be screwed.
So basically I have three options:
- counselling at my college
- counselling at the center
- group
- and there's always: do nothing and hope for the best
I'm not too sure what to do. I guess what I want to know is what is group like (if anyone here has been)? And has anyone found that seeing someone who has more experience with this particular issue was more helpful than regular counselling? Have group sessions helped more than counselling?