i'm gonna quit the meds.
i can't feel anything, i mean i am OK but i feel nothing about the break up, total insulation. except once sobbing on a train getting ridiculous looks
i am stupid, i don't deserve to be ok my emotions are as deep as a pisspool and there is nothing wrong with me, so **** taking meds i don't need, i am a waste.
i have totally quit therapy as i have moved permanently HOME, i am in london, i am busy looking after everyone and ignoring myself.
and i am ok like this i just wish i could feel that i had lost her because like all things i come to regret, i know it will come and bite me too hard.
and im so ****ing fat tried to be "good" but why bother? i need to stop eating. i need diet pills.
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