Today i'm feeling positive so i'm writing it down before it buggers off!!
Last night i was home alone and i managed ok even though we had no lights working downstairs. I went to bed around 10pm and slept till 6am without waking once. I feel quite proud of myself this morning.
We also have builders coming today and i'm not freaking out as much as i thought i would. Also i had planned on going to aqua-natal this morning and although i couldnt end up going due to the builders its the first time i've considered swimming in 2-3 years. I have a t-shirt i will wear over my swimming gear but i'm also going to try and modify a top and a tankini and stitch them together to cover my shoulder. Since i'm missing swimming today me and simon have said we might go normal swimming one night during the week instead and if i'm comfortable (i'm not sure if i'll feel too odd wearing a t-shirt thing under my tankini) then i'm going to take it up when baby is born as a regular activity. Hopefully it will help me get fit and there's a really nice pool literally at the top of the road (2 min drive).
I'm also looking at tattoo's to cover up my shoulder scars long term so i'm hoping that this means im actually considering not adding more to them! I mean they wouldn't be totally hidden so i couldn't show my arm when at work or with my family but it would mean when i go on holiday i wouldnt have to hide it or when i take the baby swimming i could wear normal stuff and on nights out i wouldnt always have to wear a cardigan. You know just makes my life a little easier.
Also i only have 5 1/2 weeks left before baby is due and today i feel lots of love for him and i cant wait to meet him! (the past few weeks have been filled with lots of anxiety rather than happniess about it all).
So yes, good things. Good, positive things.
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