I took 90 mgs of codiene followed by a bourbon and coke.. probably going to be followed by a cone...
i'm numb inside... i told my partner i think i'm miscarrying.. all he said was oh ok... hell why did i even bother telling him i was pregnant in the first place... he didnt want it... i dont think i want to be in a relationship with him anymore... hes an asshole that knows how to cut me deep...
i want to cut myself deeply... as deeply as i'm hurting inside..
its been a month... why not.. no one cares.. i dont care... i couldnt give a flying **** anymore..
the codiene and bourbon is starting to make me feel fuzzy..
ive stolen this whole thread to keep to myself, to tell people who dont know me, whats going on and my every secret feeling..
why? why am i sharing this with people that arent even involved in my life... because ive no one in real life? i dont know... i hate myself
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