Thank you, It went ok I think Emma..stayed for ages. It was part of the 'deal' that if they helped me, that Id give Tim my pills and I feel really bad for not being able to do that...but she asked if id promise to call them tonight if things got bad, and I will and if i cant I will ask Tim to...and I will do that
They are calling tomorrow o see if id like a visit/what time can they come type of thing. She said that they would arrange some support and therapy and that a doctor would be coming to my home on monday to discuss medication.
I really dont know what to think, this time last year I saw a way out from all of this..but now it seems more complicated because people are willing, or are offering their help..but what if it never comes? what if the cmht turn me away..ive already got a letter saying no more psychotherapy type things...She said things change, but will they? Maybe Ive lost faith in people.
I am so depressed and am having intrusive thoughts about allsorts..am seeing my parents tonight..been away for 3 months,,not going to be easy but may lift me, it will be nice to see them..this all just seems weird, not real
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