1.Who is the first person you think of when someone asks you if you like someone?
jono which is just stupid
2. Do you drool/snore/ect. in your sleep?
yep
3. What curse word do you say the most when your pissed?
to myself? ****
4. Seventh text in your inbox?
N/A
5. Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?
yes, it was not fun sticking up for her
6. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?
don't know
7. Are you tanned?
no not at all
8. Hair color?
dark, ugly brown
10. Confused about anything?
everything
11. Do you have any pets?
Yes
13. Do your initials spell anything?
No
14. Last person you fought with?
My sister i think or mum
15. What's one thing you actually remember about kindergarten?
the red and white checkered book holders on the back of our chairs, crossing off the date from the callender and putting up the picture of the weather, my first day, quite a few other things.
16. How do you calm down when your extremely angry?
i don't do much, i write in my diary, i have a hot shower, i go insane, i scratch myself i pace, i tear up but can't seem to cry, i grind my teeth and try to hold in my screams, i listen to bmth and underoath which i'm not too proud of.
23. Last movie you watched?
beatles documentary
24. What are you doing tomorrow?
School which i am absolutely freaking out about, going to claire's
25. Are you excited for anything?
death? finally snapping and cutting myself really badly, yeah that tends to keep me under control.
26. Were you bad in high school?
no and i'm not.
27. What are you doing currently?
procrastonating over my work and feeling really anxious
28. Is anything on your mind?
i can't do this, i have no idea how i can get out of my situation at school, i can't stand life, i need help, i need to talk to someone, i can't i can't i can't but i have to!
29. Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?
don't have one. sometimes i think about people i've liked
30. Have you ever been given roses?
No
31. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, the notebook
32. how many times have you honestly fallen in love?
one time i really believed i did, like i really did. i was filling a chasm and it was all in my head, in reality it didn't add up.
33. What’s your current problem?
i can't kill myself :'(
34. Have you ever had your heart broken?
depression has completely hacked away at it, i'm scared to think of what's left
35. Had a long distance relationship?
no
36. Do you believe the statement, once a cheater always a cheater?
i don't really give a damn
37. How many kids do you want?
4 or less
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeah i guess
43. Are you happy with your love situation?
i have no love in my life
44. Do you know someone who likes you?
no that is a very rare occasion last time it happened i was in year 9 i think so that was about 3 years ago
45. Do you like anyone?
No
46. Name something that made you frown today?
talking
47. What were you doing at 7 this morning?
Sleeping
48. What were you doing 1 hour ago?
on the phone
49. What is something you will never forget?
how i feel
50. What was the last thing you said aloud?
that's alright
51. How many different things did you drink today?
3
52. What was the last thing you bought?
cherry coke
53. What color is your room?
pale blueish
54. What is the weather going to be like tomorrow?
don't care.
55. Vanilla or chocolate?
Chocolate
56. Are you random?
i used to be, i am with claire and jess
57. Do you laugh a lot?
too much
58. Are you ticklish?
yes
59. Are you typically a jealous person?
Not at all
60. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
don't know dad probably people don't call me often
61. Do you chew on straws?
yep
62. What is the next concert you're going to?
i've only ever been to one so i have no idea
63. What's the biggest disappointment to you lately?
still being here
64. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleep
65. Is success in your future?
i don't want to know, i feel threatened by the idea that i could succeed in the future
66. Do you have a nickname?
yeah a couple
67. Are you a heavy sleeper?
not since i cut down on seroquel
68. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
A week or two ago
69. When was the last time you said I love you to a parent?
last night
70. Was today a good day?
it was a really really hard one
71. What are you listening to?
Nothing
72. Are you upset about life right now?
upset and distressed angry and unconfident and a lot of other emotions.
73. What kind of music you like best?
indie music
74. How do you like to spend the holidays?
it's hard, i never normally do anything and it makes me unwell, but i feel physically ill when i do 'fun' things and i really struggle to enjoy them
75. Do you currently have feelings for someone?
no
76. How do you feel about Valentine's day?
Just another lonely day. ashamed at myself for being a nobody
77. How is your hair?
messy, gross shortish
78. Are any of your grandparents still alive?
one
79. Where do you keep your money?
i never have more than ten dollars and it is really upsetting because it's embarrassing how povo i am, it's hard cause i can't buy things that express myself and i feel like an idiot but i try to hang on to the little change i have in my wallet
80. What was the weather like on your b-day?
sunny.
81. Would you make out with anyone on your top 8?
no.
82. What instant messaging system do you use?
fb
83. Do you own a stereo that costs more than 100 dollars?
my dad might
84. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
i thought i did a little
85. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you didn't even do?
i don't know, i sometimes hope there are people who hate me...
86. Do you miss someone?
ouch, yes yes i do
87. When is the last time you laughed?
i think i did on the phone, i didn't feel it though
88. How are you feeling?
confused, upset, unsure, scared of myself, like i'm on the edge of insanity, uncomfortable, hurting, angry, insecure, very depressed
89. Have you kissed anyone on your top friends?
don't know what that even means^ i kissed andy briefly once it was stupid and he looked shocked and upset it was awful and i struggled so hard to be happy about it.
90. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
i don't remember
91. Do you wish on 11:11?
didn't know that concept existed
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