Please take a moment to reconsider your plans. If you go through with them, there will never be any hope of things getting better. No matter how dark of a place you are in now, there is light somewhere at the end of that tunnel, and you deserve to see it. You've lasted this long, don't you want to wait and be able to see what relief from pain feels like, here on earth? Because honestly, if you're dead, you may not feel pain, but you certainly won't feel relief either - you won't feel anything. You won't be.
I'm sure people would mourn far more than a couple months if you died, they'd likely be mourning in some form or another for the rest of their lives. We all have at least someone who cares about it, but we often don't really realize how much they truly care. I promise you that if you died, you would seriously be hurting the people around you, and you already said you feel like a burden to people. A real burden would be the grief of your death. No matter how much of a burden you may think you are now, I know that those who care about you would much rather you be a living one than a dead one (although I highly doubt you're a burden at all...when we feel suicidal, we tend to think all these negative things about ourselves that aren't true).
Please, call 911 and get help before you do anything harmful to yourself. You deserve to see the sunshine again, and that can't happen if you end everything now.
*Thinking of you* <3
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