I think this is quite common. I know that for me, my boyfriend uses my awareness as a gauge of how ill I am at any given time - so he knows when I just need some support, and when to call an ambulance on me.
I know that in hindsight it is much easier to see how far we have come, or how ill we were, but in the moment it is incredibly hard to have that perspective and see the woods for the trees.
I have been encouraged to actively take a step back every so often (e.g every few months) just to see any small steps of progress I may have made, as it is hard to appreciate them at the time and can be an incredible boost to morale in recovery to get the 'oh, yeah - I have achieved that' moments.
Be gentle with yourself.
Roiben x
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