I have to wait till Monday till I get to see him in person, and already he is telling me that he doubts I will turn up. Been such a mess is hard enough as it is without having to jump through hoops for him. I might have to go to A&E and talk to psych before then, because I am at rock bottom and am a danger to myself.
Sorry I haven't posted in alcoholism support thread, I feel such a hypocrite posting there, when I cant even contain my own thoughts. My behaviours have reached all time low, and alcohol is facilitating the process, but I cant stop punishing myself. I'm showing signs of liver damage, it just makes me want to drink more.
I am losing faith in rehab, I just want to talk to my old psychologist, but because I have been discharged from the team, she wont acknowledge me anymore probably.
I'm just drinking the days away. Pathetic.
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