Thanks... I guess it's one of those sorry that you've experienced the same but glad someone understands situations. :/
Your comments were very helpful.
You're right... as I think on it I don't think, no matter how bad depression may get, I'll get to the place I was when I was younger. Mainly because back then I didn't understand anything that was going on and was still living in a toxic atmosphere. Now I'm in a better place, physically, and know so much more. I didn't think of it like that.
Yes, I think my last therapist didn't understand depression that well. It's something that bothered me so much, I actually asked my psychiatrist (he's the same one I had when I was 19) straight out if I had ever dealt with depression or if I was somehow unconsciously attention seeking or something. I got to a point where I doubted myself because about the only ones who never made comments about how I don't "look" depressed were him, my mom, and one therapist I had years ago at the beginning (not that others see me often enough to know). He told me that many who deal with long-term depression learn to "cover it up" or deal with it in such a way that they are still functioning. That helped.
I do need to check out the veteran's board. I think last time I was too young.
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