[littlemermaid]

Im lonely and feel all alone-duh those go together right?

its labor day weekend and im all alone, my friends are all out of town, I never hang out with them but i want to se bad and now I cant.

I slept all day which I know is bad for me and now im watching "thin" which i also know is just a bad idea but im doing it anyway? im alone and I want to die. I want to see my therapist and i want to talk to her now. I want to go back to the intensive outpatient program i was in. non of that is possible. I have a no contact policy with my therapist outside of our sessions. she just cut me down to seeing her once a week instead of twice. I dont want to do that but I dont have a choice. I just want to disapear right now. I want to cut, not eat and just be done.

im home alone for the weekend. I moved back home to my moms house, her and my stepdad are out having fun for the weekend on a trip.

I want my therapist I want a hug and I want to be comforted.