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bitomato · 03-09-2011, 08:24 AM

Thanks Roiben. I think that these friends were the first people to show me genuine respect and love and I didn't want to lose it. I assumed that being in a romantic relationship was the only way that the interaction would evolve, but it has been possible to develop very close friendships. However, I can't date due to my beliefs and therefore it means a level of self control that is heightening the already emotional pain I am in.

While I agree with you that I need to go out more, I am very afraid of making the wrong decisions. I am having more "off" periods and therefore think that my judgement may be blurry. I am afraid of the level of loneliness I experience. I don't know if I am ready to reach out past my comfortable circle of friends.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense- a little too sleepy.
Thank again and for all the hugs.

03-09-2011, 08:24 AM	#3
bitomato Join Date: Nov 2005 I am currently:	Not just any tomato Thanks Roiben. I think that these friends were the first people to show me genuine respect and love and I didn't want to lose it. I assumed that being in a romantic relationship was the only way that the interaction would evolve, but it has been possible to develop very close friendships. However, I can't date due to my beliefs and therefore it means a level of self control that is heightening the already emotional pain I am in. While I agree with you that I need to go out more, I am very afraid of making the wrong decisions. I am having more "off" periods and therefore think that my judgement may be blurry. I am afraid of the level of loneliness I experience. I don't know if I am ready to reach out past my comfortable circle of friends. Sorry if this doesn't make sense- a little too sleepy. Thank again and for all the hugs.
bitomato Join Date: Nov 2005 I am currently:	~Happy tomatoes together we will be~ You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe: Let's call the whole thing- red “It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men, it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014