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trekkinthrulife · 30-08-2011, 02:39 AM

My brother has autism, dyslexia, and a mood disorder similar to bipolar, although I don't believe he is diagnosed bipolar. To be honest I have a very difficult time remembering my childhood. (I dont know why, I'm only 20). I don't believe I was ever envious of my brother with the exception of one time his medication made him very sick (almost a comatose like state). I have grown up knowing I was very loved and wanted......I think my SI issues are all my own. However living with my brother, my father (bipolar and aspergers) and my mom ( a lot of physical health issues) has always caused a lot of stressed and worry which I suppose affects my SI. I have never SI for attention.....

I do know how difficult it can be. I used to get frustrated when my friends would say how they liked my brother or how sweet he is and how terrible I was for ever getting angry with him. He is my brother, all siblings fight, but because he was 'special' it was wrong for me to ever get mad at him....

Please feel free to PM me if you want, if only for a vent

30-08-2011, 02:39 AM	#2
trekkinthrulife Join Date: Aug 2010 Location: North America I am currently:	My brother has autism, dyslexia, and a mood disorder similar to bipolar, although I don't believe he is diagnosed bipolar. To be honest I have a very difficult time remembering my childhood. (I dont know why, I'm only 20). I don't believe I was ever envious of my brother with the exception of one time his medication made him very sick (almost a comatose like state). I have grown up knowing I was very loved and wanted......I think my SI issues are all my own. However living with my brother, my father (bipolar and aspergers) and my mom ( a lot of physical health issues) has always caused a lot of stressed and worry which I suppose affects my SI. I have never SI for attention..... I do know how difficult it can be. I used to get frustrated when my friends would say how they liked my brother or how sweet he is and how terrible I was for ever getting angry with him. He is my brother, all siblings fight, but because he was 'special' it was wrong for me to ever get mad at him.... Please feel free to PM me if you want, if only for a vent
	You will find that having is not so pleasing a thing as wanting. It is not logical, but is often true-Spock I'd rather have a goddam horse. A horse is at least human, for God's sake. ~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye Is it worse to be the victim, or the abuser?