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Hi there - just wondering if there's any other people who have suffered with SI problems who have grown up with a disabled sibling? Just cos 2 out of 3 people I know who have; - have self harmed, so I'm beginning to wonder...
Just a little background about my situation - My brother has fairly severe cerebral palsy, high end autism, severe learning difficulties, partial sightedness (his brain can't process the images from both eyes at the same time, so he only ever sees through 1 eye, and which eye it is constantly flicks and changes)
and various other more minor things like hyperacusis.
I have recently linked some of the reasons for my self harm to the experiences i had as a child, feeling inferior i think relates back to everyone treating my brother as the 'special one' and I was just the other one. Also all his medical stuff - to cut a long story short has lead me to see medical care as love. (feel VERY silly for saying this.. please don't ask too many questions about this bit, just wanted to illustrate to others who've grown up with disabled siblings how it can affect the way you think and feel about yourself)
I love him to pieces, and wouldn't change him for the world - just wish I'd had more support with this stuff growing up.
Any body else out there?