Hi Mrs Jacks,
Well done for getting clean of self-harm! I can see there's a lot going on for you lately, bringing the thoughts back.
What strikes me most though is that there's a big difference between loving our Mothers and being able to live under the same roof as them! (I get on OK with mine mostly, but if I lived with her we'd fall out within the week.)
It sounds like after all this time she is resenting you living there, but hasn't had the bottle to say so directly. It also sounds like you as an adult would really rather be independent. What was only meant to be a temporary arrangement has become permanent by the sound of things.
Do you think your relationship with her might improve if you and your husband had your own place? Because then perhaps you could still see your son without any need for a court battle. The tension can't be good for him either.
Have you ever sat down and talked about what access arrangements you might all have if you did live in separate houses again?
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