[Stellata]

How does one learn how to be proud of one's achievements without 'needing' to feel 'one up' on others?

For example - how to be proud of myself for taking responsibility for something, without the 'need' to think 'I took responsibility, but no one else did. I'm better!'

I know it comes from profound low self esteem and lack of praise and encouragement when I was growing up. That I don't feel worthy of existing unless I'm 'better' at some things because underneath I feel so utterly worthless. I try to change it, but I trip myself up on it all the time.