I have mindfulness to do with the voices. I'm absolutely terrible at it. I'm supposed to listen to the tone and pitch rather than what he is saying. That's difficult though when what he is saying is really distressing. I've also realised how normal i look from the outside even when he's going mental at me. I've completely shut down from it on the outside. He keeps calling me a baby killer. Its freaking me out so i keep doing things to make little man move. He's moving fine. He used to say that when i had my m/c. I'm worried he could make something bad happen to this one.
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