But I'm not ready to report anything I've tried before and they didn't believe me and when I first saw the police they just saw no reason to investigate. I can't see them again they won't believe me they'd just be cruel like the last time it'd probably be the same social worker who was horrible... They wouldnt believe me it would just be a joke and make me have a crisis of my existence once more. I can't face that man again I can't. I can't do it I really really can't both of those services let me down and I will not waste my trust on them again. But what I'm saying when I said it was my boyfriend he was a risk to the public, to children and vulnerable people but they didn't feel the need to report that. They don't force other victims of rape to report it to the police so why am I being put in a position I can't cope with!? I'm not allowed my right to talk about it at all because of it all. This was also 3 years ago can't I talk now. I know they have a priority of care but where does my care come into the picture? I know that sounds selfish but it's true... I'm not stable enough for a police report anymore due to the last two times I tried and they were truly aweful I can't face those services again atleast not in my county. I wouldn't cope with the breach seriously I'm not kidding last time nearly killed me im unstable enough right now and I just wouldn't deal with it. I know what id do I'm not manipulating just stating truth. Also my right to talk... Without
this threat it must exist?? If im honest this man I doubt is a threat to anyone else due to my personal experience of his personality It wasn't statutory rape I was old enough. It was more domestic violence than that othe specific abuse of children. The police in our community don't think much wrong with domestic violence they don't do a lot at all...
I don't know i know why they have to report this I just don't see why my rights are allowed to be completely ignored like this I mean it will be of no benefit to myself I do not want to report it as a form of protection and I mentally and physically am not well enough to cope with it, in fact it would be endangering me. So does this just not matter? I would not trust anyone again if this happened once more I would withdraw from and not return to community services. I'm not joking I would not be able to cope with this happening again and I'm not being dramatical just very honest... I'm seriously at a loss
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