Originally Posted by
roiben
What is it that makes you think you can not have babies?
I understand how devastating having an abortion can be. Have you looked into counselling to help you process the many emotions it has left you with, and to deal with the grief and loss you must be feeling right now.
Please, do not act on how you are feeling right now. As hard as the past is to deal with, it does not completely define you in the absence of the now or the future. You could potentially have a brilliant future ahead of you, and yes that could include children - whether through natural conception or adoption.
Be gentle with yourself. I know that is hard to do right now, but you do deserve to be treated well, even if you find that hard to believe.
Roiben x
I have looked at counselling there was a place in my area called ''still waters'' that i went to last summer but after a few sessions with them they became religious so that wasn't helpful as i'm not, and this year in April i had some grief counselling at my local doctors with a counselor but she kept saying things that upset me and i quit. To be honest though I've had counselling nearly all of my life and I've been in hospital twice but nothing has seemed to work hospital was way before the termination aswell, maybe i just give up to easily.
And me and my current boyfriend have been trying for two years but nothings happened as I've said I've had tests and everything's fine and they put it down to stress of terminating the baby because they say the body is a weird thing when it comes to things like that, but nothings drilling in, i just have this belief i will never have children and I've blew my chance and it sickens me, it just makes me think whats the point.
I know i sound pathetic, i'm sorry, thank you so much for your kind words
