[insidemyhead]

Ok... i was abused by a public figure that works with numerous people and still is. I disclosed the title of their job two weeks ago, they said if i said anything and it was this person theyd have to report it as they have access to other people and they could be at risk. It made me incredibly unstable, i seriously considered suicide for the first time in months and despite medication i could not sleep for two days and was hyper anxious and very illogical until i knew they hadnt obviously reported it. I made note to talk to my art therapist today about my rights and confidentiality with this topic. Long story short.. as long as they suspect this person (i havent given a name just the job) theyd have to report anything i say and obviously if i provided more information. Which i wont. I merely asked the other week and they went straight to reporting the information i literally only mentioned job. I tried mentioning every way of talking but not including identity or anything but she said theyd have to report it because other people are at risk anyway. But why is it with just this Job? When i said it was a boyfriend and his buddies they never did a thing, but those people are a risk to the community too but ofcourse some poor innocent woman or man would be attacked rather than children in their eyes so doesnt need reportng to them with all the things i talked about before they didnt do anything but all of a sudden because i express concern over this they threaten me immediately when i didnt give any detail it was ignored where does this leave any victims of abuse and rape? I mean it all comes down to their job whether its bad enough to report? Ive known people being domestically abused by same sort of people and no-one does anything. But just because of their job im not allowed to talk at all about it at all. How does that work...in what way does that benefit anyone.

The police or social services wouldnt believe me anyway it would be laughed out and id be belittled and judged again I would not co-operate with them theyd have to find other evidence. I cannot cope with this again. It would be very detrimental to my health, my well being and id close down from services, id discharge myself no joke and its not manipulating, if this happened i would not be able to talk to them anyway due to distrust so thered be no point me being with them. It would send me into a complete downfall.

So basically im not allowed to talk about the abuse, not in therapy not to anyone else without being reported and im not allowed to even be very unspecific. She said itd be the same anywhere i go even if i went private. Basically im saying, where do i stand with this? What good is this? It is a complete barrier in my treatment, i cant talk in therapy about the reason i need therapy. It would put me at risk doing this and its not benneficial on me forcing me to be silent with the constant threat of being reported.

Basically im just asking where are my rights in all this... my right to talk in confidence and be safe in myself... I didnt know where to go so i came here. I may elaborate more when i come back. I hope it made sense. Im just confused. I dont see how the system can be helpful working like this.