Change can be a scary thing, even change that can hold promise of good things - such as University. Often, we base our security and stability on the foundations of routine and home. Those big changes in life make us unsteady because they destabilise our sense of security in those foundations. If you are moving, it is bound to be scary, as is starting anything new. University can often feel like a big leap. You have got through such leaps before though - From Junior to Secondary school, for example.
It sounds like you are penting up an awful lot of emotions and that they are becoming cloudy and muddled. Anxiety can easily turn into irritation as we are less able to breath and relax.
As Katie asked, what would make you feel safer right now. Is there anything you can do that you find soothing and comforting. Like curling up under a duvet with a plushie or soaking in a bath?
Also, have you tried exercise as a means of dispersing some of your pent up energy. I find running on a treadmill can be great for this. The running helps put the energy somewhere and releases positive endorphins.
I know this may be coming across as incredibly patronising, and I understand that. I have been there. Do try to allow yourself to take that time for yourself though and be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with admitting to yourself and your familly that you feel unsettled and to act on those feelings - To seek out ways to ease your tensions and to seek out ways of feeling more secure and comforted.
Be gentle with yourself. That (admittedly frustrating) wait before the start will pass and you can ease yourself into the next step.
Roiben x
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