When my self harm used to be bad I felt like that too, I think. Like it was 'safe' to have stitches in my arm and I couldn't cope if there weren't any there. I also really relate to having needed to communicate my distress through an injury. Behaviourally that's subsided over recent years but the thoughts are still there to some degree. I'm not really sure what to advise though, sorry. Maybe try and explore with your therapist other ways of getting your needs heard, although I imagine that will take time. xxx
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