Thank you for all your replies! I really appreciate it!
I think you're right. It is a very impulsive act. I am probably addicted to doing it as much as I am addicted to self-harm but after speaking to my parents a lot over the last couple of days I am going to try very hard not to self-harm in any way but I know it is going to be a big challenge for me. I definitely need help with it. I am on the waiting list for DBT, but that's not starting until January next year and I feel I need help now. I do have my care co-ordinator to help me though and I'm sure she'll go through some things with me.
I think what drives me to ODing is actually wanting to die. Although I never take enough to kill myself (although I know it is doing damage anyway), I want to feel closer to death I think and want to know that I am in control and can go all the way if I want to. x
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