Thank you. Ive tried to make a thread so many times recently and i just cant.
I know it seems stupid but i want to hurt and punish myself. 70% of my day is spent thinking bout suicide again. Im sick in the head because i have felt jealous regarding all the recent deaths, wishing i was one of them.
I just wish i was someone else. Im so lazy and useless. I wish you really knew me. I feel like ive cheated you all so many times.
Ive read old posts where people havebeen so kind and said so many nice things and i just feel like you have been fooled and its all my fault.
I just wanted to be happy and find love and peace. Instead i found hell.
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