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I was talking to my brother and I told him a few things and he said it sounded as if I had paranoid schizophrenia but I honestly don't think I do, at all..
Anyway im really scared and I need some help, I know you cant diagnose but anyone who has been diagnosed in the past or knows any info at all, it would be so useful.
I never seem to follow anything through
I dont brush my teeth and I only shower when I really need too,
I have weird thoughts, like at one moment I'll be totally fine and the next i'll be worried that my stepdad's going to kill my mum and my pulse will raise and i'll be terrified, or for example, the other day I saw a knife on the side in the kitchen and the first thing that popped into my head was 'my brothers dead.' and i was convinced for about ten minutes that if i went into his room i'd see his dead body
when i was ten or maybe even eleven (im fourteen now) i was remembering my old imaginary friend and suddenly i couldnt 'stop imagining' her and 'she' started to chase me to try and strangle me and i couldnt stop it happening and i ran all the way home and went straight to my room.
I have periods of feeling really really really down and hopeless, and then just periods of apathy, and occasionally i feel sort of detached from everything like no-one will ever understand me
sometimes just before i fall asleep, someone whispers my name and i wake up with a start to find no-one there at all
it all sounds so stupid and to be honest, not at all like schizophrenia but please if anybody has any clue what else it could be let me know, as my mum said she was willing to get it checked out