Can anyone see me? I'm beginning to think that I am just a thought in someone's head. I'm really struggling. Thinking of phoning the crisis team or breathing space but don't know what to say. The reason why I keep wanting to kill myself is because of an instinct deep within me that is saying I do not beling to this world. I don't think that my brother belongs here either. I may as well go to the police before I kill myself because by killing myself I will be murdering my brother too. I have very little doubt that he would kill himself also but I don't want to have to postpone my destiny for him. I long to go to the train station but i'm worried that CCTV would see me and the police would come. I can't even self harm properly any more. I am of no use to this world.
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