I was actually having a decent day yesterday. I was down but pushing through it by hanging out with some friends. I went home and had a major confrontation with my sister. she said a lot of really hurtful things. She was yelling horrible things at me. I tried to go into the living room to get away and she wouldn't let me by. Then I went into the other room and she followed still screaming at me. I put my shoes on to go outside and she put hands on me and grabbed me saying that I can't just walk away. I broke free and went out the door. She followed again! I grabbed my smokes and started off down the street in my pajamas. I called my therapist because if I cut again I'm going inpatient. I was sobbing on the phone and yelling and cursing. Hopefully I didn't wake any neighbors. She stayed on the phone with me until I was back in my room with the door locked. I thought it was over but when I woke up this morning my computer was missing. She took it and hid it in her room. So needless to say I have not had a great start to my day. Oh yeah, did I mention that my sister is 21! Real mature.
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