[ironholly]

I feel like i have lost the plot compleetly, My clients moved so no i have no work, i feel like ive lost my job, i havnt worked in two weeks. College has ended and now i dont heven have that to get me out bed in the mornings. I have a masive fall out with my best friend, hes removed me off facebook. I litrly feel like hes died and im morninig him. I got that drestressed of this i started thinking my bed was going to tern into a boat and i was scared to sleep as i get sea sick. I ened up having to go to the minor injurys unit to get patched up. Now everytime i look at the bandeges i want to rip them off and ruin what they had patched up. I saw my therpest today, she thinks its all linked to father isuses but wont go into it yet as im too unstable. I just feel so draind right now. I now i need to get out of this but i dont know how i dont want it to get worse. I just feel so hollow. I dont really know the point of righting this i just feel so messed up and need resurence. I hate having bpd and all the **** that comes with it. I feel like im having a brake down, the last 4 days have gone so slow