[rara avis]

My Dr isn't reducing my meds anymore. He's actually upped them I think. He's said discharge in the next two weeks depending on my stability.
To be honest I don't care how stable I am, I just want to go home. He said he would really like me to go home, but is concerned about me and wants it to be pleasurable and not me experiencing symptoms of this intensity. He's looking out for me buti just want to go home.
He said if things don't improve in a little while 'we'll have to make some big medication changes'

Today I spent hours in my room, with the curtains closed staring at thewall because all these shapes were moving from the wall and into the space in front of me, it was really interesting but then they started to get too close and I got a bit frightened.

I can't look people in the eyes.