I don't know... I guess it started with my parents, but everything just began to accumulate >.<
Hopefully... thank you :/
I was pretty sure they would just remain thoughts and that I'd get used to it, but.. I don't know, I became much too reckless, and do things dangerously, and I can't help considering how I would be able to kill myself in whatever place I'm in.. I tried to kill myself once, it didn't work and no one ever knew, and it's so hard not to try it a different way again since I've learned so many by now...
I haven't told anyone professional... only two of my best friends and RYL, and I called a hotline once but it's not working out.. if I tell someone professional, they'll have to tell my parents and my parents would be even more disappointed in me than they already are ._. They already tell me they shouldn't have brought me into this world at all, I can't stand to let them know.. ._.
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